So. Austin and I split. It wasn't mutual. But it wasn't not mutual either I guess. Some will say it was a long time coming. We fought a lot, especially recently. And it was just hard, really hard.

So wehe decided it'd be best to give it a rest. Let us be friends, be free, and learn to love each other again if that's what's meant to be.

Maybe some day we'll get back together, but for now, we're friends. It's hard, it sucks, it hurts, we're both hurting. Last night I slept 2-3 hours. Last night he drank all night. I came to work today to try and stay busy, but can think of nothing else. He had to stay home because he was hung over.

It sucks. It just. It sucks. And it's not even because of something either of us did, or didn't do, or cheating. It just happened.

*sigh* I don't know. I'm confused, and sad, and hurting. He is the cause, but I don't consider it as if he hurt me. Because it's not his fault. It's just something that happened, and maybe it's better this way.

So I went twice so far this week!

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